I am...

I am a conundrum

multitude of attractions, parallel to one another

love, hate both intertwine into a fiery ball of emotions

dark, light fight for the chance to surface

hopeless romantic, psychotic killer thoughts run a muck

classical, alternative music fills my ears

peaceful chaos envelops my soul

I search for reasons to answer the why, for beauty, for kind souls

 a constant state of unrest

looking from the outside in

never feeling completely understood

watching, seeking, hoping, praying

believing that one day I will find the key

but all the while

afraid that it may happen too late…

Credit for Image goes to TheEmeraldDawn